They say the grass is always greener. From this side of the fence it may appear that way to our mind. We can rationalize a hundred reasons why what we "possess" now is inferior to what we may "obtain" in the future. It's so easy to do, that for most of us it's automatic. Take me, for example. I had the time of my life back in May 2012 when my wife and I went to see The Ellen Show. But my brain would not leave it at that. My synapses began to spasm. Electrical impulses went on a sugarhigh-ish firing spree. Images of fame, stardom, and riches blew threw my cranium faster than my small sense of reality could keep up. I saw what I wanted to see and desired to be what my mind created. Silly. I know. My wife told me from the start to just enjoy the experience for what it was. I couldn't. It took me almost a year to stop expecting Ellen to dial my cell phone number. I have since recovered but honestly, those ideas of fame still cross my mind from time to time.
Funny though, what I have now, my family, house, career, are enough for me. My needs are met. Don't get me wrong, there are bad days sprinkled in with the good, but where I am at is right for me. Desiring something else, whether it be a new house, a guest appearance, or bling, can only bring me down. It's my mind telling me that I am not happy in the moment which is totally ludicrous. When else should I be happy? Where else could I go for bliss? The moment is it. To wish for something else is insanity.
As I've said before, I am still human. I have my weak moments. I have a tendency to run away from anything that my brain cognizes as difficult. But the constant reminder of living in the moment, accepting things as they are, has brought me greater peace. I hope through continued repetition to relax even more.
Peace Out,
Nathan J.
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